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| 29 Apr 2008 10:57:10 pm |
 Love |
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She is the wildest thing I ever met
We flew to the stars
and crashed into the mud.
I have never felt such flying
such magnificent soaring in my blood
with that woman..that beautiful beast
living in that oh so beautiful golden body
and a face Venus coveted,
and I feasted on her!
I tasted every cell of her
I drank her like mad
mad loves wines,
every hue, every desire
that could be slaked
was mine! Mine!
Every man jack of us
desires to be more
than we are, well
I was that and more!
I played her like
a stradivarius
I ignited melodies in
her...and she melted
over and over and over again!
I would say to her
lie back my love
and roll those green eyes of yours
to heaven..
because I am taking you to the stars!!
And off we soared
plunging into desires house
and burning it to the ground
with our loving!!
I was a giant of loving
she was my match and more
she tore into my brain, my tender
waiting flesh, into the core of my soul!!
I have never strode so strong
so daring as I was with her
I did not know who I was
that was man enough for her and more
That man in me,
I have never seen again
only with her
what did she have
that made me so magnificent!
Yet, What was it in me
That made her mad, mad
with hating me!!
I revolted her! I made her sick
with rage! Rage I say and I saw
like nothing else in this world!
And, when the rough patch
passed..we were loves very own
children dying to touch and kiss
and meld into eachother again!
We fell back into eachother
ten thousand times!
And fell away ten thousand more!
Over and over, this we did
And I would do it again
Till these bones cannot stand
to reach out to her again!!
Come slay me again I say!
I am ready to die and be torn
asunder again...if you would
but let me hear your voice
calling me to doom again!!
in colossus collision of daring kissing
and a playfullness reeking of sex
and powerful powerful mating
and that sweetest beingness
the sweetest wine of it pouring
over us, a nectar of being together..
We would dance like Mercury and
Aphrodite..we flowed..we flew..we were
desire incarnate..oh such beauty
in a man and woman..
The people would stare in the wonder
of us!!
Made for the terribly wonderful
amusement of man and God!
Strings ran through us
drawn on high by some
imortal higher than a kite
with his vicarious hands and hips and
lips kissing us! Kissing eachother..
I dont care what else
happens to me in this life.
I knew her, I got to love her
I got to be smashed into pieces
by her
Her scorn was mine
her hating me, my trophy!
It was me she detested! Me!
Not some other but only me!!
What a fortune!
What treasures are the
love and scorn she bore me!
I would have been loved and
hated by her a thousand times
and a thousand more!
I was that man!
I was the one she chose! and
those mad laser red eyes hated me!
Me! Oh God! Lucky Me!
So now
as the curtain comes down
on this my otherwise meager life
Know this
I and only I
Was the man she chose
to Love..to Hate..to hold hands
in the rain with..
To sleep those purple nights
In each others arms and skin
kissing skin!
Oh, I still can sing
with the grandeur of it!
I was the man
who got Gods greatest Gift
To have the very best
And the very worst
What more can a mortal
have in this life??
I will look for her
on the otherside
and I shall find her
I know I shall find her
Because God is God
And he needs us
So he too can know love and hate
and all the other great things
we mortals know! |
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Category : Love
| Posted By : Stanley |  Comments[1278] |  Trackbacks [0] |
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| 25 Apr 2008 12:18:33 am |
| Poems from Segovia Spain |
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Here are my little poems:
I sit in a cafe in Segovia
I write on the page
I wait for that voice
that makes my hand want to write.
Strange beauties, running through my finger tips
God using my hand to tell his deeper tales
of man and mankind
But that voice that great voice within
Oh, when it writes I am in God's company!
Glorious sadden talks of pure gold
revealing soul and revealing truth!
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I remember sitting is another cafe
in far away Lenox Massachusetts
Just sitting there talking with a friend
and quietly, a soft powerful urge to write
came upon me
I fumbled for a pen and paper and found them quickly
and here it came!
line after line of pure tears of pure heart
a crumbling on the page
and yet, oh so beautiful..
I just rushed on a writing
till it was done!
There below on the page
such bitter sweet words
like blood on the page
smiling at me
A laughter in me!
I had been favorably used
by God himself!!
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Self Portrait
How can I such a solitary laughing man
hear such tears in words?
I have yearned for tears and pain
So I too could feel the pain
That is life stretching my cells
To grow into something else!
Some giant bursting
in my skin!
To make me relevant
Making me matter!
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I am growing old
I truly feel it as I amble
down the streets of my life..
My mind is quieter now
Oh, could I learn to love
this new silence...
I've been afraid of being silent
Like some gravestone would crush me
if I sucumed to it...
All the teachers say
silence is the land
that God lives and speaks in
Why have I been so afraid
to hear his voice?
Was I afraid my tiny voice
would disappear?
Now I am not afraid
and if I were, its too late
to turn it aside
It is here in my body, my toes, my brain.
It is too late to become noisy again
and the truth be told
I am tired and exhausted
of my noises..
My clattering busy bee life
missing all the beauty of the air..and sun!
And God bursting out in everything!
While I plowed deeper
into tiny narrow crevices
made of my fear..
of doing badly!
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God Loves me and I am Good!
My pen and hand are on the paper..
Now what??
Come on Hand!
write you hand!
Or, I shall wait
quiet inside..and here it comes!
What will it say?
Oh, bitter tears
of empty years..
Of empty songs I sing
and no one hears!...
Alone you are..Aren't you?
But I am here
with you dear boy..
Dont you know?
You are still that child
I kissed to sleep..
You are still my favorite boy
don't you know?
Thats why you
are always happy!
And move so light stepped
in the world!
Why do you suppose
Your are made like this?
Some accident?
Some good fairy somewhere?
It is me dear one
I love you so..
You are a good thing I have made..
Rejoice Stanley
you are blessed by me!
That's right! Laugh out loud!
That's right!
You know!!!
Wow, that last one has validated my silly strange happy little life!! |
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Category : All of it is making me up
| Posted By : Stanley | Comments[1299] | Trackbacks [0] |
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| 04 Apr 2008 10:05:53 am |
| The Present |
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I want to live my life in the present
Right now, not tomorrow, not yesterday.
This is it, this event, this moment
This stuff going on right now!
Let me live here
all the time
not a skip to any other time
To hell with the moment after this one
I will do anything to just live in this moment,
this one right now!
I can handle any "this moment"
Its that yesterday and tomorrow
the get me down..
Ok, some yesterdays are terrific
but the hell with them too!
I just want all my attention on the Now!
I want to be all I can be in this "right now!"
All I want to have is right now's
I dont want any memories
I dont want any reflections on the past
I dont want to waste any energy on what was!
Gimme Now's, thats all I want!
What the hell do I have to do to me
to just have Nows!!
A lifetime so far going back and going forward
and away from this moment!
Gimme a string of moments thats all I want!
Is that too much to ask???
Come on boy, come on Man!
Just stay here, right in this Now!
Fully loaded with this moment
and everything in it!!
I want to see all the edges of this moment
I want every nook and cranny of it!!
Gimme Now! and Gimme another Now!!
Now!!
I dont want to be drifting into yesterday!
I dont want to be thinking about tomorrow!
The hell with that!!
Just gimme Now!!
Now!! |
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Category : All of it is making me up
| Posted By : Stanley | Comments[1179] | Trackbacks [0] |
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